Ward Choir

I had a member of the bishopric visit me yesterday and I got handed some VERY bad news! I figured they wanted to give me a new calling but I wasn't sure what it was. I know they got it right because all I said to Dustin is please anything but ward choir! He came in and asked me to be the new ward choir director! I think he could feel the air leave the room as Dustin and I both couldn't breath. I of course said I would do it but I was about on the verge of tears for the rest of the day and completely depressed. I have sang in many choirs but A) this was over ten years ago and B) singing in a choir and directing a choir are two very different things. I have NEVER directed a choir. I think that Heavenly Father is teaching me a lesson though (as many callings do) because I have never been a consistent member of any ward choir......ever. I never go. And people always are trying to get me to go and I never show up. So now I am the one that is going to look stupid with no one singing in the choir! It only serves me right. I had our first practice today though and shockingly it went a lot better than I thought it was going to to go. I actually did a better job than I thought I would do. I guess after all those years of hearing a choir director it all came back to me. And I enjoyed it more that I thought I would. I was mourning the fact that I wasn't going to get to go home and take a nap like Dustin and I always do but it was really okay because I kinda enjoyed myself. I have this weird thing about ward choirs as well because one of the reasons I had never gone was because I never thought we sounded very good and it would drive me nuts. I think maybe as the director Heavenly Father has given me a different ear because I thought we even sounded pretty good! Anyway I am still upset that I have to stand backwards to the entire congregation once a month, so everyone can see my booty, and lead the choir.